biggest regret;

Was not that I did not try but it was that I did; I guess.
I shouldn’t have said anything, not a single word.
I don’t know why I decided to let it all out when I should have kept it hidden deep, deep inside.
What if I did? What if we never talked about it? What if we never tried again? Would I have been happier? Would I be having this argument with myself right now? Would I be feeling like such an idiot at this moment? Gosh;
I feel like I’m being a jerk right now for saying all of this but I don’t know what else to do. I already finished venting to both of my best friends and yet I still have things that are unsaid and unwritten so I had to let them down somewhere. I hope you don’t take this to directly; I doubt you’ll even see this. IF by any chance you do,
I'm sorry

and oh yeah;;

If one day I start to matter, please let me know. (: