No change yet

There still aren't many changes in my life. Like, right now, I am anticipating for something really big and drastic [[in a good way]] to impact my life and change it completely, turn it a complete 360. Things aren't exactly how I wish they could be. My friendship with one friend is still screwed up and day after day, it feels like it's getting closer to that point where it's impossible to fix. I don't know right now. It seems like neither of us are trying to rebuild and every time we DO fix it, we end up screwing up the relationship again a few days after that. Other than that, you all already know about my tae kwon do situation. I'm pretty much tired of whining about that subject now so I'll try my best not to mention those 3 words for a while. The only thing I'm actually looking forward to nowadays is...CAMP! [[which is in 19 days]] Camp, to me, as of now, sounds like the closest thing to paradise, even though in reality I'll be out in the cold weather in the middle of the woods.(:
A 5 day/4 night getaway out of this city, away from all this drama, away from reality in general would be so good for me right now. And to add to its already-perfect description, it's absolutely free so my parents don't have to spend a single penny on this getaway for me. I mean, yes, I know this camp counselor thing will mean "responsibility" and to add to that, this trip will be like a test for me to prove to my parents that I CAN take care of myself when I'm alone. To me, it's one step closer to obtaining "trust" from my parents. At my age, I still need to work to gain their trust and if I can manage 5 days/4 nights without them, I feel like it would tell them that I'm growing up and that I'm not that needy child anymore [[or at least NOT as needy as I was when I was younger]].