I definitely need some "change." Seriously, for the last few weeks my blogs have all been so depressing and I realize that I've been whining nonstop about one drama after another and I'm apologizing right now for writing so much of that stuff. I'll try to change from depressing to happy topics now okay? Well, let's see, I'm going to try to think of some happy topics right now. So like on Saturday, I went to the mall and met up with some friends and met some new people who are pretty darn chill. They all went to eat lunch together and I showed up when they were done so I just sat there and chilled with everyone. They were pretty entertaining people, if I must say so myself. And then after that, I met up with one of my friends from TKD, whom I only hang out with once a year, like LITERALLY. It might sound weird or creepy but like, that's what we've been doing for 2 years now. He decided to make it an "annual" thing now but like here's the thing. Last year, after we hung out, he stopped talking to me for 7 whole months leaving me wondering what I did wrong and like we just BARELY just recently started talking again and then decided to chill at the mall just Saturday. I had lots of fun that day but like, for some reason, I feel like I wasted HIS time. I let the fear of not talking for another 7 months [[basically a REPEAT of last year]] get to my head and I didn't let myself be open and happy much. I was zoning out most of the time so I felt like I wasted his time but I have to say, everything we did Saturday was like a DEJA VU of last year and that got me thinking A LOT. I was scared that a repeat might happen again and I don't know if my fear's come true yet or if it's just because I'm overly paranoid but like, we haven't talked every night like we have been BEFORE Saturday. And as the days accumulate, so does my fear. I don't want to spend another 7 months wondering what I did wrong...Oh dear I just realized that this topic suddenly changed to depressing.
Next time, NEXT TIME, fersure, I'll change the tone of my posts.
I promise you guys.
2 comments:
Haha do you ever notice it is almost impossible to stay positive about something! Man I just realized reading this and going over my blogs. Ahhh there has to be something great in all of our lives... Right? Or else how could there be life at all.. that's what it is made up of. Both happiness and sorrow.
Another way to look at is there is balance in everything. If our head was made too big, it would fall to the floor and it would make it completely challenging to walk.. haha Could you imagine that?! Back to my point.. everything has balance, or it wouldn't function properly. We both have to find the other side, even if it feels like it isn't balanced.
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