My passion and love for Tae Kwon Do (aka TKD) is definitely still there, yes, but it's not as strong as it was before, like when I first joined. Whoever plays a sport or has a hobby that they really enjoy doing might understand what I'm trying to say. Usually, on my way to TKD, I would get this nervous/excited/anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach for some weird reason. It might not sound all great to you but it was definitely a good thing for me. It made me realize I was just really excited to go there and see everyone and train again. But to tell you the truth, that feeling has been slowly disappearing more and more by the day. That fact scares me so much. I'm not only taking a break from TKD because of all the stress, but I'm also trying to give some distance between me and that sport that I love to seee if that feeling might come back once I return to TKD in December. I want that nervous feeling in my stomach. I want to feel anxious about going there again, not knowing what to expect. But, unfortunately, these past few weeks, those feelings have been replaced by feelings of fear, annoyance, apathy, and vulnerability. In a way, this is kind of like a relationship. After spending fur days a week with this person doing the same repetitive things, having the same repetitive conversations, every day, every week, every month, eventually you would grow tired of it. It's only natural right? Well, in most relationships, this is the point where couples decide to take a "break" to decide whether they prefer being apart of being together, so I've decided to try that out too. I've decided to take a break from training because I need some breathing room and I don't want my passion and love for this sport to disappear completely. I want to regain that feeling of excitement again.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Needing some space...
My passion and love for Tae Kwon Do (aka TKD) is definitely still there, yes, but it's not as strong as it was before, like when I first joined. Whoever plays a sport or has a hobby that they really enjoy doing might understand what I'm trying to say. Usually, on my way to TKD, I would get this nervous/excited/anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach for some weird reason. It might not sound all great to you but it was definitely a good thing for me. It made me realize I was just really excited to go there and see everyone and train again. But to tell you the truth, that feeling has been slowly disappearing more and more by the day. That fact scares me so much. I'm not only taking a break from TKD because of all the stress, but I'm also trying to give some distance between me and that sport that I love to seee if that feeling might come back once I return to TKD in December. I want that nervous feeling in my stomach. I want to feel anxious about going there again, not knowing what to expect. But, unfortunately, these past few weeks, those feelings have been replaced by feelings of fear, annoyance, apathy, and vulnerability. In a way, this is kind of like a relationship. After spending fur days a week with this person doing the same repetitive things, having the same repetitive conversations, every day, every week, every month, eventually you would grow tired of it. It's only natural right? Well, in most relationships, this is the point where couples decide to take a "break" to decide whether they prefer being apart of being together, so I've decided to try that out too. I've decided to take a break from training because I need some breathing room and I don't want my passion and love for this sport to disappear completely. I want to regain that feeling of excitement again.
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I think that's a very wise decision, Cindy. It almost wouldn't be fair to you or your teammates (is that the right word?) if you continued to go to TKD without the passion you've always felt for it. Maybe this hiatus will remind you of all that the sport means to you, and when you do return to it, it will be with a renewed enthusiasm that will be contagious to everyone around.
i'll take a break with you if you want, my leg is healing now but i can hurt the right leg again? haha. Hopefully when you come back, everyone will be there training hard with you again =] And of course, i won't notice you come in 'cause i'm too busy doing 540s or something ;]
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