Wednesday, September 17, 2008

tae kwon do testing

Have you ever had this weird feeling about something that hasn't happened yet? Like, you know something bad is going to happen, but you don't know exactly what yet? Well, I don't know. I have that exact feeling right now at the pit of my stomach. Tae kwon do testing is tomorrow. I am already at an advanced level there, but I can't help but still feel nervous about testing every single time it comes along. I have to prove so much to so many people and I have such a limited amount of time to perfect myself to show them. I have to prove to my teacher and everyone at tae kwon do that I'm trying my best, and that I DESERVE my belt and that I deserve to pass this testing. It's the pressure that gets to me. There's so much going on through my mind during the whole process and when there's that much pressure in the air, I can't get my mind to think straight. I only have a few more hours to practice everything all over again. But even when I get things perfect at home, I lose my train of thought during testing. My mind suddenly goes blank and I forget practically everything I learn, especially in front of people. Unfortunately, I don't do so well in crowds. I always have this feeling that they expect me to do things a certain way, and that I'll have to live up to their expectations. I just hope that this nervous feeling I have right now goes away soon, and that everything will turn out fine tomorrow at 4 o'clock. I guess I'll just have to try my hardest, and hope for the best!(:

2 comments:

Amy said...

Cindy, I can understand how you feel, but can I please see you perform?

Thompson said...

Let us know how it went, will you? I'm sure you rocked it. Is that something people say? Rocked it?