She;

Why must she go through problems almost every day of her life? Why must she go through them alone? Why must she close herself off from everyone and take all of that pain onto herself? 

I don't understand why life is so unfair to her. Her friends misunderstand her actions. Some leave her side for somebody else. Some take advantage of her kindness. Some make her cry. Why must she go through all these ordeals? She has the kindness of a saint and the smile of an angel. Her words can brighten up everyone's days while her actions make everyone feel special. She is the kindest of the kind. The truest of the true. The purest of the pure. The happiest of happy but she can also fall and be the saddest of sad. Why can't she just have everything she wishes? Why doesn't she have everything she deserves? Happiness everyday and all day from everyone around her? I can see it. There is a darkness that is slowly eating her up but she's hiding the pain. I'm scared for her. I never want to live to see the day when she stops smiling altogether... 

Please help her.

Too Dedicated?

I think NOT.

I feel as if I'm getting really really dedicated into leadership all of a sudden. Staying after school on a Friday just to make posters is definitely not something most teenagers enjoy doing but I had the urge to do something to help this school. I don't think I've ever been this dedicated to anything other than TKD, but that's a long time ago.  I feel happy that I've found something to be totally into again. In addition to getting things done and getting way ahead of the other grades for our rally, I'm glad I do this after school because I have my best friend with me the whole time. Not only are we using our time productively, I feel like it's a bonding experience with her. She gives me all the encouragement I need and keeps me going. Without her, I don't think I would be able to get any of that stuff done, like EVER.

Yay; I think life might just be getting better,..

(:

ohyeah;

btw? colors&paint makes me happy!

FirstTime;

I've felt proud of myself in the longest time. 

Today at Tae Kwon Do, my teacher decided to have a sparring tournament. 

Guess who got first place and kicked butt?(:

Yours truly; YAY!

My prize for winning other than my nun chuck keychain?

A swollen right foot; now I'm limping :D

woot.woot.

Cliché Much?

Suddenly; I feel the need to blog about words that sound cliché and way overused to me. Most of these words really mean nothing to me anymore:

- ILY

- I'm Sorry

- I Love You

- Love Ya

- I'll change

- You're different

- You're special

- You're beautiful

- I want you back

- I regret not... (fill in the blank)

especially when I hear them all coming from you.

HA!

Unspoken Words

"Everyone hears what you say.
Friends listen to what you say.
Best friends listen to what you don't say."

I don't exactly know who wrote this quote but I can say for one thing that I can definitely relate to it. I found this quote and I realized that I absolutely HAD to write a blog on it. Whenever I say I'm fine, most of the times, I'm not. Nobody else can see this but you. You don't believe me and then you go and dig deeper for the truth. I'm really glad you do this actually. LOL. For some people, when I say I'm fine, they'll believe it or they'll just drop the topic but you don't do that. You're not the same as them. You've cared more for me than most of my relatives have in my 16 years combined and trust me, you definitely ARE family to me. I don't get why other people see you as anything less than amazing because seriously, either they're just incredibly WEIRD or they need to go get their eyes checked. You are the bestest best friend I've ever had and I don't get why other people would take you for granted and dislike you in any way. You make so many people smile, you make my day, & I KNOW that you're going to make our Junior Class amazing
[btw: VOTE SCHAICH for junior class PRESIDENT guys!]
You make classes seem less boring, you start conversations like nothing, and you bring your energy and hyperness with you everywhere,. WHY is that a bad thing? Why don't people see you like that? Why do they have to cause such immature drama for you? I don't get it.
Okay, definitely getting off topic. LOL.
Basically, I just want to say a final note:
Thank You for listening to my unsaid words when nobody else was listening.
That's what matters to me most of all.
You deserve to smile girl, so SMILE through everything you go through in life, whether it's good or bad.
I'll be right beside you smiling with you.
This I WILL make sure of.

I'm So Ready

for 

Summer '09

Bring It On Babyyy!

So ready to suntan and sunburn

So ready to find a new somebody

So ready to get to know people

So ready to block people out of my life (this is nicer than it sounds)

So ready to hang out with my best friend and make new memories!

So ready to chill with Kelsey and find ourselves (Fill in the Blank)

So ready for so much, oh so much!

Boo You;

Why do you have to act like a complete jerk in front of them and then transform into a completely different person when talking to me? You tell me that I don't "try" but seriously why bother sometimes? Why try when the other person is completely ignoring you at school and then go accusing you of being mad at them when you get home? Why talk to me on iChat and then argue with me in person? Why go bragging about your life when you know I don't care? Is it for attention or did you expect me to go berzerk on you out of jealousy? UH, yeah, not going to happen buddy. Go ahead and move on but seriously, did you have to go to my best friend out of all the people in the world? If you have something to say, why not just say it to my face instead of playing telephone with everybody? Because seriously, 

Gossip Involves The Act Of Twisting/Turning Of Stories Until They're Far From True;;

Just thought you should know this.