Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Back On My Feet


You tell me. 
There's a good side to everything bad right?
Not everything will stay this way forever right?
If it seems like the end of the world now,. will it be right tomorrow?
If everything is dark right now, will it be bright again tomorrow?

but most importantly,.

If it's raining right now, will it be clear tomorrow?

The End?


A good friend once told me that there's a beginning, middle, and end to everything in life. 
I remember that our talk started out because I was asking him about his brother's relationship and he didn't really tell me a story. He just told me that it included a beginning, middle, and end and that line from him stuck with me until today. It makes me sad to say that it's totally true. Everything in life begins and ends but sometimes an ending is just a cover up for a new beginning. Life goes on and it doesn't slow down for anyone so if something is not meant to be, there's no use trying to hold onto it. 
It'll just leave you sooner or later.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Let's start over!


I just read over all my blogs from the very beginning of the school year up until now & not only was I saddened & reminiscent,  I was also confused&lost at the same time,. You would think that the writer would remember what was going on in their life on a certain time, day, month, and year, but seriously, while reading some of my old blogs,. I couldn't recall what I was trying to say or what I was talking about. It felt weird but it seemed as if my mind didn't WANT to remember certain things in my life? 
Or,. my memory's just fading away more&more everyday. 
While some blogs confused me, however, some made me sad to read over. 
HAHA,. 
especially the blogs I wrote about Camp Campbell and my "first love." 
Those made me think of the past and miss the good ol' days at camp with all those kids& it made me think of the guy who was the main character in my first love blog, who is now just simply a good friend,.(:
It made me realize how much has changed since I've written all my blogs at the beginning of sophomore year, how much the people in my blogs have changed, and especially how much I've changed.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I bet you all have,.


thought into your future, whether it's about family, relationships, college, career, etc. 
Ever imagine what life would be like if something were to screw up & go completely wrong?
What would you do if one of those things were to not work out?
What would you do for the rest of you life?
The list goes on and on but have you ever felt so uncertain about something to the point that you avoid the topic as much as possible? You know the possible outcomes, yet you still go along with it, hoping that the worst of the worst won't happen, trusting yourself, trusting your decision, trusting your heart. 
But if the worst WERE to happen, and you saw it coming, would it still be as bad when it actually does happens?

I know this probably sounds confusing right now, but it's something I just had to vent.
sorry.
(:

If I were to,.


choose a new place to move to, I would probably choose someplace with a nice beach.
I love the cool air, the salty environment, the warm sand, the cold water, basically every
little thing on the beach, MINUS the crazy seagulls,.
I just love the feeling of peace when I lay on a blanket on top of the sand, listening to other kids play with their families and hearing the waves hit the shore.
To me, those are probably the most soothing noises in the world
The sounds of nature that will lull me to sleep every single time.

SpringBreak

has been fun, but at the same time, not so much fun. I don't know if that makes sense but there are days where I'll wake up happy, and days where I'll wake up unhappy with everything. I am enjoying the fact that I don't have to wake up everyday and go to school but I can't seem to relax, even when I'm far, far away from the city. A friend told me yesterday that I need to relax some time in my life & my answer to him was that I can't. I would if I could and I probably should, but I won't be able to relax and just go with the flow & just be happy with life until I reach an age where I have everything I want and everyone around me is happy.
I have no idea how long it will be until that day but I guess, I'm willing to wait and find out.

How the topic changed from spring break to happiness, I have NO idea,.
(:

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

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